A Good Week

So far, it's been a great week, with the exception of JM's car deciding to crap out on him. So plans for Feast of the Hunter's Moon were kinda canceled. Not his fault I'm sure. I'm sure all the extra highway miles coming up here from Indy kinda pressed the car's protest by breaking itself at an inconvenient time. I was looking forward to not only spending time with him, but with his daughter as well. They are a package deal that I am willing to accept and grow into. She looks adorable and I fully understand she is the biggest priority in his life. So a big part of me says I should take things much slower than this week has gone between us, because it might be a bit much on her too. New girlfriend suddenly coming around taking up dad's time might be perceived by the munchkin as an affront to her time with dad. I don't want to do that. Kids, I'm told aren't an end to having fun, it's just a different kind of fun. That should be interesting. The Number One Rule about dating those with kids as best as I can tell is as such and something I truly need to keep in mind: It's a package deal, not a buffet. You don't get one or the other, you get both. The bond between them is greater than any thing you should have. Sounds good in the mind, I pray I keep that straight if things progress beyond the cutesy time together. Alas, I'm not quite sure what to think as he hasn't answered his phone much of the weekend. Either due to working on the car or perhaps he's spending every moment with the munchkin. I'm not precisely sure which it is, but it bothers me a bit to not know which it is. I'm so much into the idea that honesty at all times would be nice. So if JM is feeling crowded after this week, which I see as one of the most wonderful times this year, then he's gotta tell me. He's gotta tell me if there's something he wants that I haven't given. Or perhaps someone else he might be more closely interested in than me. I really haven't gotten the impression of the latter comment, but should that be the case, I'd like to know.

I've already severed a few ties in anticipation of things working out, because I want to leave no room for mistakes on my part for there to ever be an issue. So that means, Java Guy takes a hike. The Wolf doesn't get the time of day. Florida Guy is in the know that I've found someone who truly has my interest right now. Mr Recent gets a clue by four as to what it was he didn't do right at all. Etc etc etc.... My EX.... In the know now. We talked about the meaning of dating someone with kids. As in, his wisdom about the package deal has struck home in my mind. It's good that we can still talk and that he seems open to listening and advice when asked, sometimes not asked for, but advice nonetheless. And OH MY, my special friend.... He's called this week since he's moved to be closer to his sweetie. It was good to hear from him. All that uncomfortable squeamishness, it seems, has calmed down. He even congratulated me on the new boyfriend. So now, I pray, I hope, I'll try to hang on for dear life to this one (in a non-stalker way I must say) and see what time may bring for us/me. Of course, it's too early to say the words, "I LOVE YOU." It's more LUST than anything, but a frighteningly good chemistry that I feel has room to grow into something true and good.

So maybe I'm feeling impatient today. Antsy in a productive way since I've begun cleaning and have the intention of hitting the office to finish paperwork and get caught up. I just wish he would call, so I can hear that sweet deep voice and get all mooshy. I like the mooshy. Mooshy is a nice feeling since the cuddle meter this week has more than maxed in some areas. LOL Yeah, that cuddle meter's been running on E for months, but this week has more than made up for it. Oh well, back to cleaning here.... I need to keep myself busy.

~ A Happy Tammolly

...So if I die today I'll be the happy phantom
And I'll go wearin' my naughties like a jewel...
I'm still an angel to a girl who hates to sin